vicious circle (noun) UK /ˌvɪʃ.əs ˈsɜː.kəl/ -a continuing unpleasant situation, created when one problem causes another problem that then makes the first problem worse. (source) A little update on my current situation: I started taking medication a little over a week ago. To be quite honest with you, I was scared shitless. The list of side… Continue reading “Teufelskreis”
Excuse Me, I Think I Lost Myself
It's the third week of January, Friday to be exact. The year is 18 days old but it already feels like it has been going on for an eternity. Not in a bad way, more in the way that time is flying by way too fast and it's hard to keep track of it. But I… Continue reading Excuse Me, I Think I Lost Myself
Hello 2019
First of all, a Happy New Year to everyone! Congratulations on finishing 2018, on managing through whatever hardships you had to go through. Whether you now have lots of good memories or lots of bad ones, whether 2018 was the best or worst year of your life. And if you decided to stay alive this… Continue reading Hello 2019
A Year in Music
It's December, the end of the year is finally closing in and a lot of people are getting ready for the holidays. It's that time of the year again where you sit down, remember the year and decide what you'll do differently next year. 2018 was a weird one. January through May rushed by, the… Continue reading A Year in Music
A Fresh Start
I'm starting to realize why so many people wait for the New Year to start with their revamped lifestyles. Because what January 1st is for them is Sunday morning to me. Let me start by revisiting the events of last week though. On Monday everything was, well, not good but quite alright. I went to… Continue reading A Fresh Start
After The Fall
The antidote to negativity is not positivity; it's warmth. But how am I supposed to give myself warmth? The last three weeks were harsh. I hardly slept, couldn't go out, ate almost nothing. it feels like my body is fighting against everything I try to do. The anxiety attacks get worse every day, the worst… Continue reading After The Fall
Full Stop
When I said I was at my lowest on Wednesday I was either lying to myself or too sure that I'd let this one end on a soft note. Either way I was completely wrong about that. You just know something is off when every little thing, even the smallest details make you explode almost… Continue reading Full Stop
Rear-view Mirror
The past has always been an issue for me. There's just so many things I can't really let go of, so much luggage I don't really need but still feel inclined to somehow squeeze into my car while I worry about whether or not I'll be able to close the trunk. It seems to be… Continue reading Rear-view Mirror
Watch Out For The Potholes…
Recovery is not a straight line that increases exponentially. That's probably what you hope for and first expect once you decide to work on yourself but reality is harsh and not as forgiving as we sometimes hope it is. However, both Ups and Downs are natural companions on this journey and should be treated equally.… Continue reading Watch Out For The Potholes…
The Journey Begins
Hello, I'm lunaluna. At the time of writing this, I am 19 years old, living at home with my parents and my dog. I finished school over a year ago, am unemployed and not searching for anything at the moment. And there's a good reason for that. During the last year of high school I… Continue reading The Journey Begins
Diary of A Journey 